Asking

At the 30 year reunion for North Central, a girl, well woman was talking to me. I remembered her from a couple of classes we took together.

In the course of the conversation, she revealed that she had liked me and would have gone out with me if I had asked her.

OMG! At the time, true I was helping take care of my Dad, who was dying. He always asked me, though, if I was going out and having fun, dates friends etc.

I told him sure.

This got me to thinking about the girls I asked out and did not. And a friend's mention of not being asked to dance.

There were a couple who shall remain nameless. They were in my acting class. Sweet pretty and unassuming despite that said attractiveness.

I even worked on a scene with them at one of their houses! Yipes!

Yet I never asked them out. Dad would have only been an excuse and a rightful one maybe. Nonetheless I SHOULD have.

Instead one time I hemmed and hawed about a girl for a date who was a self centered biotch.

I paced and twitched, finally calling. She said she was busy that night.

After that I ignored her.

That was a pattern that repeated itself several times.

Regrets I have a few......

Not anymore. I will live and not ever pass up people to care about.